Great Finds on Our Shopping Trip.

Yesterday Doc and I went shopping in Burlington because we wanted to go see the Punisher movie. Every other movie we see at the theater is the others pick. So Doc's pick was the Punisher. Once we got to the Majestic 10, we drove past to see if it was playing it wasn't--bummer. His choices were Bedtime Stories, Yes Man, 7 lbs., Benjamin Button, The Tales of Despereaux, Valkryrie, The Spirit and Marley and Me. We watched Marley and Me on Christmas which I will get into later on. We decided we would go watch 7 Ibs at 4:30. It was only 11:50 so we needed to find something to do. We ventured over to South Burlington to Eastern Mountain Sports which is one of our all time favorite stores. I found a great tech wick zip up shirt in white... oh course it was a size large---too big but not too big with a bump. Sadly, my bump doesn't exist. So I needed to find a medium if I had any intention of purchasing. So I hunted to store---I found one on a store model---Checked the tag sure enough it was my size. I started to de-robe the lady right there! Leaving her with pants and vest which managed to cover up her fake boobs. Doc found ski pants that were 50% off---SCORE! We left and went over to play it again Sports and Sally Beauty Supplies. Doc was looking for a pair of used skis for me. I'm not purchasing new skis for the maybe 3 times I venture to the mountain. He didn't find any in my size but thats alright. We'll go back in a couple of weekends to look again. I went into Sally's and picked up some new nail polish. Now if I could only find the energy to paint them :0)For Audrey~Spontaneous~Orange knockout

We ate the Texas Roadhouse for the first time. Great service, food and atmosphere--You can't ask for anything better than that. The prices were really reasonable also. We finished up with driving to Colchester to Costco's in attempts to find Doc a watch for his birthday which is just around the corner--January 12. I ended up getting him a Suunto "wrist computer" which he is just tickled pink about. I caved and let him start wearing it almost immediately. No surprises in this house. I will pick him up a gift card or something to go along with it to give him on his actual birthday. Along with dinner and baking him a cake. We went and looked at digital picture frames as I have been wanting one for well over a year. Back a year ago they were so expensive but the perfect size. Now I can only find ones that are 10x12 or 8x14---way to big for my desk. As we were walking away Doc spotted a 2-pack nicely tucked back behind a box of other DF's. A great find... A 2-pack of 5" digital frames for 89.99--We snatched those up. So we both can have one for work. So So exciting! Here are our other purchases: The Digital Frames, My tech wick shirt, Doc's Ski pants and a mug for him to put pictures in from StarbucksOnce we got home Doc played on the xbox and Wally cuddled up right next to his daddy and wouldn't leave his side. Allowing me to hang out on the computer and add photos to my digital frame :0)

the shoes that i now walk in.

My Shoes

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

Thank you to the Bumpie who posted this poem on the Pregnancy loss/Miscarriage board.

2008

1. What did you do in 2008 that you had never done before?
Cut the strings that were attached to my mother. It has had its ups and downs. The holidays have been spent exactly how Dom and I have wanted. I've been learning to put my family (Doc and I) first and everyone else second.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't do one for last year but this year I plan to make a few.

My new resolutions:
1. stop drinking soda
2.floss my teeth twice a day
3.shed some of my extra pounds.
4. Keep a "neater" home
5. Pay off debt and follow a budget
6. Become a woman of God

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My best friend Linda gave birth in August to a baby boy named Ryan. He's our god child. Also many of my nestie friends gave birth to beautiful babies :0)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully we didn't have anyone who passed away.

5. What countries did you visit?
We traveled to Mexico and took a road trip to the south. I can't wait to do more traveling like that--It was a great experience.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A mortgage with our name on it :0)

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
September 4th- The day we found out we were expecting Baby E and September 15,2008 the day Baby E went to heaven

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Standing up for my family (Doc and I)

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not doing that soon enough

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I suffered the loss of our Baby E and the after effects of it.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Our Hummer and Of course we signed a lease to purchase our condo so that was a GREAT accomplishment

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Dominic--he has stood by me through my best and worst moments. Though it hasn't always been easy he has done and exceptional job.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My extended family,enough said.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Vacation.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Eye of a Tiger by Survivor. It turned Christmas 2008 into a joyful moment. I beat Doc at a video game session :0)

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier
b) thinner or fatter? heavier
c) richer or poorer? more wealthy (just a little)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Sorting through our junk and reducing the amount of belongings we have, church and cleaning our home

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
spending money and eating out.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
At home relaxing.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
I fall in love more and more each day.

23. What concerts did you attend this year?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Doc and I LIVED for Tuesday nights---The Shield was on! I also enjoy Heroes, Intervention, Top Chef and Moving Up.

25. Do you dislike anyone now that you didn't dislike this time last year?
No

26. What was the best book you read?
I <3>

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Resputina.

28. What did you want and get?
a home.

29. What did you want and not get?
a baby and a new car for me... but those two things I can live without for a few more days as long as Doc, Wally and I are healthy and happy.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Dark Knight and Marley& Me.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
We went out for dinner and Doc did a great job at turning a bad bad week into something a little more positive. I turned 23.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Financial stability

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Earthy

34. What kept you sane?
My husband.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
There really isn't one.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
economy

37. Who did you miss?
My father in law and our friends Debbie and Shawn.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Cindy Lou... She just the best friend a girl could ask for!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Good things come to those who wait... It's true... DH and I searched and searched for a home to purchase and when we least expected to find one.... We did!!!

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I can't. I know sad!

Christmas Eve & Christmas Day

Merry Christmas from our family to yours.
I just wanted to share our Christmas cheer with you.

As some know Doc and I have been working some 55-70 hour weeks. Its been a little hectic in our house between work and Wallace getting sick we've had little time to really think about the holidays. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing considering the holidays aren't what they used to be. With the loss of Doc's parents and the chaotic family that I belong to--its easier for us to just the holidays blow over. We celebrated Thanksgiving just the 3 of us and it was great... we did exactly what we wanted. Stayed in our pajamas, ate an early meal and watched a couple of movies. We planned to the same exact thing today for Christmas. However Doc being the manager for his unit at the hospital changed our plans just a bit. I wasn't even done my shopping until yesterday at 4:45. I had to go finish up Doc's stocking and pick his other large gift. I stood in line at Walmart for 1/2 hour... it was CRAZY the number of people that were there. I got the 2nd to last one--Phew! I got home and left the big item in the entryway and ran to the bedroom to stuff his stocking and jump into my pajamas to make it more like Christmas morning. I told him to close his eyes and I carried in his other big gift that I just purchased an hour before. I hung his stocking with festive cheer. Once he opened his eyes he know that Santa had arrived. We opened our stockings and gifts and discussed what we wanted to do for our Christmas dinner... Mexican!!! We went to Julio's for Christmas dinner---it was awesome! We just relaxed and had a great evening. To start Dominic got up and went into work for 6am. I got up cleaned, did laundry and dishes. Once Dom got home--- we've just hung out with Wallace who wouldn't leave his present more than a few feet away from him. We decided that we wanted Chinese for dinner and to go the movies. I'm going to continue to share our Christmas days with you. Santa Wallace trying to get his Daddies attention..

Our Christmas Loot

Doc got Xbox 360 Guitar Hero World Tour, Rubber Mats for the Hummer, Pizza Stone, Custom made wallet, Hancock DVD, Fallout 3 and new winter jacket.

Wallace got a stuffed toy and yellow muttluks I got Danskos, Crocs, Bath Stuff, Cashmere bathrobe, sweater and a new winter jacket. Our 2gether gift---A Yuppie Coffee Machine :0)

Wallace "enjoying" his dressup time as Santa"Mom, I really hate this hat!""I think I'll just rip it in half so I'll never had to wear it again!"

I discovered today that Doc and I really like Coats. This is our "guest" coat closet and no we didn't have a holiday party today. Those really ALL belong to him and I :0) Thank you Santa for bringing us 2 more!

Merry Christmas BabyE

BabyE,

Merry Christmas sweet child. I wanted to thank you for watching over Daddy, Wally and I this week as it hasn't been a very easy holiday season this year. It hit me about a week ago that we would have just found out whether or not you were a boy or girl, instead your our sweet angel by the name of BabyE. It fits you just fine. I know your Grandpa Zoli and Grandma Ginny are spoiling you rotten today. Give them an extra hug and kiss for Daddy misses them so much! Daddy bought you an ornament for our tree about a month ago--It's a super baby onesie. You are our super angel watching over us. WE MISS YOU!

Merry Christmas.

I love you,
Mama

O' Christmas Gifts -Handmade by me!

Hi, I'd like you to meet two of our AEGIS groupies: Case and Ant
aka: Casey & Anton
About them: They have a love of travel, snowboarding, rock climbing, Air soft, camping and they think dogs are great. You could say that they're an adventurous couple despite their habits of sleeping in late on a Saturday after a night out at the bar. He drives his jeep with top off while Casey rocks out in her little Scion despite Ants lack of love of that car! If only it was a mini. Tattoo's and piercings go hand in hand with this pair. They are eccentric and I love the two of them for this! If I had balls I would be more like them! They both got tat's on their right index figure of a mustache and started the Mustache Gang. So every where they travel they take a picture of the mustache's. They parted ways a couple months back--Team G(irls version of) AEGIS hasn't been the same since the split. The girls loved getting together. I wish they would stop with the fvck buddy shyt and Case would just pack up her suitcase at her parents and move back home. She needs to reclaim her pin-up cross stitch bathroom! I'm hoping with a little help of my joint Christmas gift to the two of them--I can pack some love into my box and mail it to them. To just get my friends back to be the Case and Ant that I know and Love! Thats right... I made them Mustache Gang holiday stockings.
One for her and one for him.

I also did a little DYI headboard till I get my platform constructed this will work to break up the wall. Just some antique ceiling tiles spray painted an off white and nailed to the wall. (Sorry about the mismatch pillow cases--(got a bloody nose)